Pyrenomonas ovalis

This was actually a project I had almost finished and was about to postpone. Well, I don't know if I'll manage to finish it right before 2026, but at least the drawings were complete, and that's what counts. For these diagrams, I used the images and information available in the following two sources, as well as the information written in this blog post:

• "Chapter 18 - Cryptomonads". In: "Freshwater Algae of North America (Second Edition)". Brec L. Clay 2015.
• "Ultrastructure and Systematics of Two New Freshwater Red Cryptomonads, Storeatula rhinosa, sp. nov. and Pyrenomonas ovalis, sp. nov.". Paul Kugrens, Brec L. Clay, Robert E. Lee. 1999.

Having said that, I will begin by stating that Pyrenomonas ovalis P.Kugrens, B.L.Clay & R.E.Lee 1999 (synonym: Rhodomonas ovalis Nygaard 1950) is a species of cryptomonad alga (superclass Cryptomonada, class Cryptophyceae, order Pyrenomonadales, family Pyrenomonadaceae), belonging to the phylum Cryptista in the clade Pancryptista, which in turn is part of the CAM clade, which, along with Pancryptista, also includes Archaeplastida (the algae related to and ancestors of plants).

The cells of Pyrenomonas ovalis (each cell being considered an "independent individual") are oval-shaped and can vary in color from pink to red, due to the presence of chloroplasts. I should mention that, although reddish tones were used in the illustrations, they aren't entirely realistic of the organism in real life, and their use was purely artistic and educational (to make the parts more visible).

The thing is, at first glance it might seem that P. ovalis has two chloroplasts. That's not true! It has a single chloroplast, but it's bilobed. Each lobe is connected by a midline that encloses a starchy membrane, which in turn encloses the pyrenoid. What's unsettling is that the pyrenoid has a ventral invagination that houses a nucleomorph so oddly shaped that it's elongated and fusiform. Oddly shaped, because until now I'd only seen nucleomorphs with more or less oval shapes (well, like misshapen potatoes), but anyway, they resemble organelles that never quite became nuclei. But the nucleomorph of P. ovalis has this strange shape and location.

That, I believe, is the most remarkable feature of this organism. The rest is typical of what you would expect to find in cryptomonad algae. The nucleus is located at the posterior of the cell, the contractile vacuole at the anterior, and the vestibule, with its furrow, connects to a gullet, which houses the flagella. The flagella are located subapically on the right side of the vestibule (this would be in dorsal view; in ventral view, they appear to be inserted on the left side). The ventral flagellum is shorter than the dorsal one and has only one row of tubular hairs, while the longer dorsal flagellum has two rows. The endoplasmic reticulum and Golgi apparatus have speculative shapes. The single reticulated mitochondrion distributed throughout the cell also have a speculative shape, but his shape in the cross-section is not speculative, as I based it on how they appear in Kugrens et al. (1999): Figure 21.

In the case of the mitochondrion, I have tried to represent it according to the established pattern for cryptomonad algae: that it is usually a single reticulated mitochondrion (i.e., as if it were an interconnected network). In the work of Santore and Greenwood (1977), it is indicated that this single reticulated mitochondrion is usually like a network of branches (sometimes thinner than others) that may be concentrated around the gullet. The branches extend throughout the cell, both internally (I would call this the "internal mitochondrial complex") and near the inner side of the plasma membrane (the "peripheral mitochondrial complex").

There are some exceptions to this general form of reticulated mitochondrion (for example, Hemiselmis rufescens has a more worm-like and unbranched mitochondria) (Santore and Greenwood (1977), but unfortunately for Pyrenomonas ovalis, I haven't found any visual information about its mitochondrion in ventral or spatial view across the entire "body" of the organism. There is a micrographic representation in cross-section (Kugrens et al. (1999): Figure 21), which mistakenly suggest that they are individual units, but it's most likely a random cross-section, a piece of mitochondria, from the entire tangled structure that runs through the cell.

The transversal section I've drawn better shows the bilobed nature of the chloroplast. I've also included the thylakoids (those dark lines that create a kind of labyrinth within the chloroplast lobes. The thylakoids are the sites where photosynthesis takes place, by the way). The ventral invagination of the thylakoid, where the nucleomorph is located, is also visible. In cross-section, it appears small, but that's due to the viewing angle; ventrally, its true elongated shape would be visible. Although it's a cross-section, I've also included a "shadow" of the vestibule, but that's just a representation of its location; it wouldn't actually be visible in a cross-section.

I've also illustrated what I imagine a colony of P. ovalis to look like, since Kugrens et al. (1999) mention that it forms palmelloid colonies. Do you know what "palmeloid" means? Because I thought they formed palm-shaped colonies or something. Purely nonsense: palmelloid in this context means colonies whose cells are enveloped in some kind of protective secretion. In the case of P. ovalis, this coating is a mucilage matrix. In Kugrens et al. (1999): Figure 16, the electron microscopy image reveals that the mucilage has a rather irregular and wrinkled texture, like aluminum foil that has been crumpled and folded quite a bit. Although that could be a consequence of the freeze-fracture technique being applied to observe that shape. This technique consists of freezing (fracturing) a biological sample and then depositing a platinum-carbon mixture to build a replica that can be better observed under a transmission electron microscope (Severs 2007). Anyway, I've represented that same texture in my illustration, and my "colony" only consists of 3 specimens... but you can imagine that in real life a colony could include more P. ovalis cells.

Finally, I've also depicted the periplast of Pyrenomonas ovalis. As in other cryptomonads, the periplast is a covering structure of the cell, functioning as a cell wall (although it's more flexible and not as thick), and it consists of two parts: the inner component (made of rectangular plates with rounded corners), and the outermost surface component, which consists only of thin fibrils.

And I think there's nothing more to say about this organism. I just want to mention that these illustrations will be hosted on Wikimedia Commons for free (non-commercial) use, with the requirement that you credit me (DOTkamina 2025). 

And I think that, all things considered, it's a good way to end 2025. I wish I could have done more... but at least I can say that I did, and that I'd like to continue making more illustrations as long as I can. 

I hope this is helpful. Happy new year (づ ◕‿◕ )づ

Goniomonas truncata

Goniomonas appears to be a primitive cryptomonad organism because it lacks chloroplasts, unlike other cryptomonads. It also lacks any other type of plastid or nucleomorph. In all cases, it appears transparent. That's why I liked drawing it: simple and easy to remember.

In the following illustrations, I've depicted the dorsal and lateral views of the organism. The illustrations are based on the following sources:

• "Chapter 18 - Cryptomonads". In: "Freshwater Algae of North America (Second Edition)". Brec L. Clay 2015.
• "Goniomonas truncata (Fresenius, 1858) Stein, 1878". Dr. Martin Kreutz. 2023 (Estimated with WebsiteAge). 

Additionally, I needed to consult other sources of information for the writing of what is written in this entry, which are the following:

• "Cryptic Cryptophytes – revision of the genus Goniomonas".  Maria Sachs, Frank Nitsche, Hartmut Arndt. 2025.
• "Heterotrophic flagellates (Amorpha and Diaphoretiches) in phytotelmata bromeliad (Bromeliaceae)". Poliana Maria Sachertt Mendes, Fernando Miranda Lansac-Tôha, Bianca Ramos Meira, Felipe Rafael Oliveira, Luiz Felipe Machado Velho, Fábio Amodêo Lansac-Tôha. 2019.
• "Morphology, Ultrastructure, and Small Subunit rDNA Phylogeny of the Marine Heterotrophic Flagellate Goniomonas aff. amphinema". Mercedes Martin-Cereceda, Emily C. Roberts, Emma C. Wootton, Elisa Bonaccorso, Patricia Dyal, Almudena Guinea, Dale Rogers, Chris J. Wrighte and Gianfranco Novarino. 2009.
• "The mitochondrial complex in cryptophyceae". U.J. Santore, A. D. Greenwood. 1977.
• "Order Cryptomonadida". Paul Kugrens, Robert E. Lee and David R. A. Hill. In: J. J. Lee, G. F. Leedale & P. Bradbury (ed.), An Illustrated Guide to the Protozoa. 2nd ed. 2002. p. 1111–1125.
• "Ultrastructure and molecular phylogeny of the cryptomonad Goniomonas avonlea sp. nov.". Eunsoo Kim, John M Archibald. 2013.

I was seriously considering postponing writing this, but I really want to finish it and at least try to reach 10 protists and not feel like an empty shell. Let's look at the main image:

I've included two views: dorsal and lateral. I think the dorsal view is easier to understand than the ventral view; I believe the parts are clearer in the ventral view. I don't want it to be obvious that the main inspiration was Clay's diagrams (2015).

The flagella of Goniomonas truncata are of similar length, approximately half the length of the cell, and emerge from the dorsal side of the vestibule. Clay (2015) mentions, however, that one of these flagella has a row of "curved spines" (Kugrens et al. 2002 describe them as "recurved"), and a row of fine "non-tubular hairs" on both flagella. Indeed, that is how I have depicted them in the illustrations, although you may need to enlarge the images to see that detail.

In Clay's diagrams (2015, Figure 3A), it is represented with 8 ejectisomes, but Kreutz (2023) mentions that there are only 6, and according to the micrographs in that reference, there appear to be 4 ejectisomas larger than the other 2 (see Figures 4a and 4b of the reference), with the 4 facing ventrally and the other 2 facing dorsally. However, this is just my observation, and I don't know if it's a real anatomical feature, since I don't see that arrangement in Figures 2 and 3 of the same reference. I have represented it as mentioned in Kreutz (2023) and as visualized in Kreutz (2023, Figures 4a and 4b).

I think many agree that Goniomonas appears to be an ancestral cryptomonad organism and that's why it doesn't have chloroplasts or any other type of plastid. It has several food vacuoles, which form each time the organism ingests bacteria, so their number and size vary depending on the size and quantity of bacteria ingested. The nucleus is located dorsally in the center. And in Clay (2015), it is not represented with anything else, giving the appearance that it is actually simpler than other cryptomonads.

Of course, mitochondrion, Golgi apparatus, rough and smooth endoplasmic reticulum were represented, but their shapes, sizes, and colors are merely speculative, and I assume they must exist because this organism is a eukaryote, and these organelles are technically present in "most eukaryotic cells." Ribosomes are also represented, in high concentration near the rough endoplasmic reticulum, and dispersed and a lighter purple hue (like small dots) throughout the cell.

In the case of the mitochondrion, I have tried to represent it according to the established pattern for cryptomonad algae: that it is usually a single reticulated mitochondrion (i.e., as if it were an interconnected network). In the work of Santore and Greenwood (1977), it is indicated that this single reticulated mitochondrion is usually like a network of branches (sometimes thinner than others) that may be concentrated around the gullet. The branches extend throughout the cell, both internally (I would call this the "internal mitochondrial complex") and near the inner side of the plasma membrane (the "peripheral mitochondrial complex").

There are some exceptions to this general form of reticulated mitochondrion (for example, Hemiselmis rufescens has a more worm-like and unbranched mitochondria) (Santore and Greenwood (1977), but unfortunately for Goniomonas truncata, I have not found any information about its mitochondrion. In the case of the illustration of Goniomonas here, I have chosen to represent it as less extended and with somewhat broad mitochondrial branches, but I believe that in reality it should be more tangled and extensive.

Clay (2015) mentions that Goniomonas truncata only has one furrow and does not connect to any gullet as occurs in other cryptomonads. It also mentions that bacterial ingestion occurs through phagocytosis, via a structure known as an "infundibulum." Neither of these structures is depicted in Clay (2015).

The descriptions I found of the furrow and infundibulum are limited, mainly because I don't have enough visual references. But I did what I could. According to Kugrens et al. (2002), the furrow is ventral and connected to the vestibule. The furrow has a stoma on its posterior end (I understood this to mean "at the posterior end," and there is a reference to this in Cryptomonas tetrapyrenoidosa, see Kugrens et al. (2002), Figure 4). The infundibulum is described as being located "on the left side" of the cell. Kugrens et al. (2002), Figure 13, shows a micrograph of Goniomonas truncata that conveniently indicates the furrow and infundibulum. 

Considering that the flagella are located on the dorsal side of the vestibule, then in that figure we are viewing the organism from the ventral side, and the furrow appears to be a large structure that runs along a good portion of the ventral area, I believe roughly halfway, although that is just a rough estimate. In Clay (2015), the diagrams also have an unnamed notch on the ventral side, which I suppose could represent the furrow. The infundibulum in Figure 13 appears as a hollow, which obviously extends deeper into the cell, but its length is not indicated. 

Kim and Archibald (2013) mention that the infundibulum of G. truncata is "narrow and located near the anterior left corner," which is basically what I had already mentioned: that it is "located on the left side." I don't know how narrow it actually is; I have represented it as roughly the same width as the furrow, although shorter in length. In Martin-Cereceda et al. (2009), it's mentioned that the infundibulum of G. truncata could actually be interpreted as a cytopharynx, but in my representation, I call it an "infundibulum" anyway.

And what else can I say about this? Well, nothing more. The rest of the cell is occupied by food vacuoles. I could swear I've already mentioned that somewhere. I think I have nothing more to add. Oh yes, except that this was supposed to be published at Christmas, but I got delayed because I was terribly depressed to see that the furrow was ventral and not "dorsal" as I was originally representing it, and I had to redraw the diagrams and names again to make them match. That said, the part about the infundibulum and furrow is almost speculative, because I don't know their true morphology and size. It's there as a research reference for future projects.

Of course, Goniomonas truncata is transparent and doesn't have that many colors in real life. The ones shown here are for illustrative and educational purposes. I've tried to avoid using overly bright colors that might lead to misunderstandings. The images are free to use and are available on Wikimedia Commons. As always, the only requirement is that you credit me if you use, reference, or modify any of the images: DOTkamina 2025.

Near 2026 huh?

I don't know if you can feel it... This Christmas, and these days in general, which last year felt more festive, seems more depressing than last year. And it's not just because of my own gloomy attitude. I walk the streets, always accompanied by a family member because God knows I'm still a baby and it's all a plan to keep depending on my mother and further delay my maturation (she doesn't know that every now and then, I let myself be taken on some unfamiliar bus to some random place, just to memorize new areas).

( •_•)σ

But, in that way, I've noticed that everything is more subdued. There aren't as many events anymore, and the ones that are there are small, short-lived, and uninteresting. People are walking around more "normally"; there aren't as many people with bags and Christmas outfits or anything that inspires the Christmas spirit. The days look very ordinary; only the Christmas signs from some clothing and food brands bring you back to reality. It's Christmas, folks!

I don't know if I've mentioned it before. My mother had surgery. I won't say the exact name of the procedure for privacy reasons, but I must say it was a major removal of an important internal organ that was developing benign tumors. Yes, benign, but the risk of them becoming something more serious was looming, and boy, has it been true... because they found strange growths outside the predicted area.

My mother was discharged a few days ago, in fact, just yesterday. 24 hours and a few more. Soon it will be, what, two days? But it has felt like a brief hell. The first day was truly painful to watch. My mother in her weakest state, close to death. An old woman in the flesh. Very weak steps and voice. The trip to the house where she's resting was an absolute nightmare, the hottest day ever, and the roads full of potholes; no matter how slowly the car was going, it was impossible not to shudder with every sudden jolt.

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Yesterday I found her crying in pain. And I know what I'm talking about, because I remember myself, when after my wisdom tooth surgery they couldn't get the painkillers in time, and I had to endure the two-hour wait in what was the worst pain of my life. Like breaking a bone, but continuously, while having a fish bone stuck in my gum. And I suppose that's how my mom felt, because damn, the surgical wound involved several layers of tissue deep, and a gap where the tooth had been, which has to heal with fibrous tissue. And I'm afraid the process isn't going to be quick.

I'm listening to music that matches my feelings, the general feeling. I remember last year well. It was the holidays, we ate at my grandmother's house, one of those cheap roast chickens that you have to fry again because there's blood on the bones. But everything felt good. Everything was fine. And yet, I felt helpless. Who knows why. Some fight with some so-called friend. Maybe I was still lamenting "H3R" then. At some point, I must tell you about "H3R," the one who hurt me the most.

But these days are different. I feel like I'm accumulating conclusions that summarize the accumulated sadness, the hopeless thoughts. Yesterday, M was telling me about her trip to the mountains, a camping trip with some friends. I don't know why I'm hiding what I think about it. The illusion that there's someone I can communicate with without fear of being ignored or not taken seriously enough. In the end, I gave in to the temptation to tell her about my mother. I suppose it went "well." At least, as expected from an interaction where at least one party doesn't expect anything more than the mere interaction to happen. I think in the end I haven't learned anything, nor have I let go of anything.

Today, a message about the work that has to be submitted in the first days of what will be 2026. A small dose of reality. There's nothing to celebrate. You don't reach paradise. You only reach another day. You decide what to do with that day, and you'd better decide wisely, because it could very well end abruptly, and you could instantly regret what you DIDN'T do. Or, what I find even crueler, you could find out that you'll have a painful end, one that will only intensify over time.

The atmosphere in my family isn't so relaxed. My mother has brought many people down to earth. We try to live normally, but that doesn't change the fact that she's in pain. She's in terrible pain, suffering terribly. It's the normal effect of the anesthesia. Of course I know that, for God's sake. I'm a damn biologist; I study biochemistry more than the damn plants in a forest. That's not enough. It doesn't even calm me down when I'm in so much pain that I curse the entire evolution of proteins, at least since the archaea. What's going to calm my mother, when she barely understands the magnitude of her surgery?

( /・・)ノ

                       ( /・・)ノ

                                                   ( /・・)ノ

                                                                             ( /・・)ノ

                                                                                                     ( /・・)ノ

                                                                                                                           ( /・・)ノ

                                                                                                                                                  ( /・・)ノ

And you know what the worst part of all this is? What I'm overlooking, and what should disgust me the most? That I've lost my attachment. I don't know. In movies or sad scenes of children crying for their mothers, they portray how they truly suffer for their mothers or fathers. But I've been unsettlingly calm. I haven't felt anything beyond concern. But concern that something serious might happen, something that would require taking her back to the hospital, and that would mean more expenses, therefore less money for... whatever it is I plan to do with my life, whether it's a master's degree (I don't know, knowing the nature of my final project), or starting an unsustainable business.

In other words, I'm worried about how bleak the situation might become in the context of my mother's surgery... but not "my mother" as such. I mean... God, I didn't think I'd say those words. But when I try to think about my mother, only good memories come to mind, when something nice happens between us, like a little cuddle or a hug. From there, what I remember are the beatings she gave me as a child, the yelling she did for every little mistake. The punishments. The restrictions. The "no yelling," my mother's authoritarian voice in social situations that made me uncomfortable, or even just when we were at home, and made me feel miserable. I look for unnecessary justifications, because in the end, I was a piece of shit myself, and it seems her actions didn't work, because instead of correcting me, they only made me afraid of her, afraid to do anything in front of her. When she's not around, I'm still afraid, and it triggers strangers getting annoyed or yelling at me for being a moron. Which has led to me becoming even more of a piece of shit.

So... that's it. It's the darkest conclusion. Today was my first day alone at home. In charge of the household chores. I realized some terrible mistakes in what was going to be my post about Goniomonas truncata. Damn, I'm not going to be able to meet my goal of 10 protist illustrations before the end of 2025. Sweeping, handwashing clothes, cooking my own food... it takes up a lot of time, it's exhausting by the end of the day, even though it feels like crap. Even so, and although it doesn't change the fact that it seems like a total waste of time (subjectively), I won't deny that I feel at peace without my mother. The food situation is a pain, my mom makes amazing dishes. But, on the other hand, I've gained the freedom to do things at my own pace without her complaining about what I do or my attempts to help her, without her belittling me and calling me a weakling, or comparing me to others. I guess that's what raising a child must be like.

/ᐠ-ꞈ-ᐟ\

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Will I ever make any progress?

I don't know. I'm still reeling from the fact that the episode I watched tonight of "Watashi wo Tabetai, Hitodenashi" was the last one. I thought it would be a happier anime. I wasn't expecting such a heavy yuri. Not in the sense of blood, gore, or that over-the-top stuff. Somehow, the anime resonated with my feelings too.

Except, as always, it's fiction.

And in the kind of fiction I'm looking for, there's someone who cares about you selflessly.

Empty Christmas

 

Just like the title says. 

ヾ(^ ^ゞ

This Christmas is sadder and lonelier. I remember at the beginning of this year I wished for good luck in love, friendships, self-esteem, and studies. And all four things have failed, in every way. Yesterday I was eating yogurt on the bus, watching everyone—"everyone"—with their turkeys or chickens, getting ready for Christmas dinner. I envy those who truly have reasons to celebrate with their families, to get together, because that's what Christmas is all about. But I felt more connected to "the others"—the street vendors, the harassed workers, and the people living under bridges. 

Is that perhaps my future? I always imagine myself in a shitty job I don't even like, a slave to some company, small or not, and then I run into a classmate, well-dressed, with a real job, working in their field of study, or at least with a good position in the world, with kids or a partner, and I'm watching, watching how those people who enjoyed life more when they were young are still enjoying it as adults. And me, who's worked so hard to be the best, I simply haven't managed to be the best, nor have I managed to secure that kind of life. I posted on X that my enthusiasm seems to be waning, but it's really disappeared. I don't think I have any real friends. My plan, when the semester ends, is to disappear. I don't know if I should disappear completely, or just reduce interactions to only when they send something that could connect me to a job. 

┐ ( -“-) ┌

I hate that. Why does getting a job depend on how many contacts you make, and not on your own merit? That's why so many gooners get jobs with hardly any effort, stupid losers who have it easy just because they have a relative at some biotech company. I have sent lots of CVs and no one was selected. Not a chance. Absolute bullshit.

I'd at least like to have a partner. I'm old-fashioned. A faithful girlfriend, who'll eventually agree to marry me, for us both to work and support each other, have kids, and settle down in a house. And eat nice meals like a family. Because I feel like I've never had a family life; it's always been fragmented. And women are so awful. Even so, I've tried to make it work, but nothing. One is more of a bitch than the next. And it might sound really misogynistic, I'm sorry, but that's really how the women I've met are. Luckily, at least one had the dignity to tell me she preferred other types of guys before I kept investing my time. Others, I think, just took advantage of the fact that I was always available to help them. It's painful when you stop investing in that conversation and realize it was always a contract, that they were never interested in you, only when they needed help with a rehearsal, then silence.

Overall, I'm weak and easily influenced. I expected to find reasons online to justify my existence, but all I found was more emptiness. Ignored online, ignored in real life. The drawings I do at least keep me busy, for now. Even so, I keep trying. Not with girl M anymore (she always has some ex-boyfriend or almost-something to dwell on and lament), now I'm pinning my hopes on a girl who's a teaching assistant in the Economic Reality department. What I can say is that my communication skills have improved, at least in chat. I'm not so nervous about writing anymore, wondering what the girl I'm writing to will think. Practice has really helped. I owe that mainly to the conversations with (2)1(1)_11(2)-(2)1(1)-(3)1-11(1)1. Back then, I really hoped she didn't have a partner. Now I can only nod and congratulate them on their happiness. What else can I do?

I could also thank the human R. Perhaps another pillar that has kept me within the same group of work entities, preventing me from being completely isolated (Would I have felt more miserable that way?). Although it's not stable, it's reactive, and generally doesn't inspire confidence. But it remains a key piece in... not being alone. It's all about not feeling alone, really. Or rather, escaping that idea.

Christmas 2025 is lonely and holds little hope for me.

Even so, I still get excited by messages that restore my hope from time to time, vividly igniting the flame for a few minutes, then that flame goes out but leaves a few embers.

I think I'll devour some bread.

ᇂ_ᇂ

Over ○几

It's finally over.

༼つ ◕_◕ ༽つ

This 𝖘𝖑𝖛𝖙 week is over. Because it's been a shit overall. Doing shit homework I didn't want to do. Procrastinating like a damn homeless, at the cost of suffering internally because that wasn't going to make the assignments just disappear. And ending the week terribly because I did awfully bad on my Multivariate Statistics exam. 

I always struggle with logic questions, and on top of that, I thought I was going to nail it this time, because I thought my logic had finally worked, but no, I failed almost everything and ended up among the worst. I told you so, I'm not good at math. And time's running out, my mother is starting to suspect.

I was really feeling stupid today. My thoughts were starting to get unsettling. But I tried googling myself. The AI ​​gave me a summary of my "life." It described me as an artist and researcher (female for some reason. I'm a male btw).

Of course, that's far from what I actually am. But it's an approximation of what I'd like to become, if it were possible in the long run. Even so, it brightened my afternoon today. I really needed to work through my self-criticism.

( “･ω･ﾞ)

Cryptomonas curvata = Campylomonas rostratiformis

The first time I drew this organism, I thought I was drawing a rare species. Then I carefully read the synonymy history, and no, what I thought was Campylomonas rostratiformis is now Cryptomonas curvata. I'm well aware of the tensions in the taxonomic world and how they fight over authorship. Sometimes that makes me distrustful. The scientific world can be cruel at times.

Anyway, I'll include below the list of all the synonyms registered for Cryptomonas curvata in AlgaeBase. Curiously, "Campylomonas rostratiformis" isn't listed. That's how it was proposed by Clay in 2015. Later, when I tried to find reference micrographs for the species, only "Cryptomonas curvata" appeared, and that's when I discovered that the current taxonomic decision (at least as of the date of this post, December 14, 2025) is to maintain that name, as a species belonging to Cryptomonas.

I based this drawing on the following articles and sources. Additionally, I obtained the text information in this blog from the first three sources:

• "Chapter 18 - Cryptomonads". In: "Freshwater Algae of North America (Second Edition)". Brec L. Clay 2015.
• "An ultrastructural survey of cryptomonad periplasts using quick-freezing freeze fracture techniques". Paul Kugrens and Robert E. Lee, 1987.
• "Ultrastructural variations in cryptomonad flagella". Paul Kugrens, Robert E. Lee, Robert A. Andersen. 1987.
• "Light microscopical observations of the sigmoid species of the genus Cryptomonas Ehrenberg (Cryptophyceae) and their eventual pyrenoids". Pavel Javornický. 2014.
• "The phytoplankton community (except Bacillariophyceae) of Lake Abant (Bolu, Turkey)". Abuzer Çelekli, Olcay Obali, Okan Külköylüoğlu. 2007.
• "Cryptomonas rostratiformis". Protist Information Server.
• "Cryptomonas". PhycoKey. University of New Hampshire.

Ah, and the synonims list (.づ◡﹏◡)づ, according to AlgaeBase:

Homotypic synonym:

• Cryptomonas ovata var. curvata (Ehrenberg) Lemmermann 1903

Heterotypic synonyms

• Cryptomonas rostrata O.V.Troitzkaja 1922
• Cryptomonas rostrata Skuja 1948
• Cryptomonas rostratiformis Skuja 1950
• Cryptomonas lilloensis W.Conrad & H.Kufferath 1954.

And don't forget about Campylomonas rostratiformis. I saw that name first in Clay (2015), but it's termed as "Campylomonas rostratiformis Hill 1991" in Çelekli et al. 2007.    

Full anatomical representation of Cryptomonas curvata (Campylomonas rostratiformis).

                              

Clay (2015) mentions that it is the largest cryptomonad species, with the following dimensions: 45 to 80 µm long, 16 to 40 µm wide, and 14 to 24 µm deep. He mentions that the posterior part of the Cryptomonas curvata cell (which he refers to as Campylomonas rostratiformis in the article, page 837) is slightly curved, and this is very evident in his illustration of the organism (Figure 7B). However, in the micrographs, I don't see it as so evident, nor can I discern this curvature (Figures 8A-B and 9B). The micrograph on AlgaeBase does show this curvature of the posterior region. Nevertheless, I have included this characteristic in the main drawing (ventral view).

Cryptomonas belongs to the family Cryptomonadaceae, which is part of the superclass Cryptomonada, within the phylum Cryptista, clade Pancryptista, which in turn is part of the CAM clade. The CAM clade encompasses not only Pancryptista but also Archaeplastida, the group that includes algae related to and ancestors of plants.

Anyway, in the main image, I've shown the ventral view of the organism, and below it on the left, the anterior view. On the right, there's a simplified recreation of what the organism would look like unsectioned, as if viewed under SEM. Please note that all colors used here are for illustrative and educational purposes only and may not necessarily correspond to the actual colors. However, Cryptomonas curvata is an alga that naturally appears reddish-brown due to its chloroplasts. According to Protist Information Server, the color range varies from green, through turquoise/blue-green, to brown, and even rarely red.

                                              

Cryptomonas curvata, ventral view illustration.

What can I say about this organism? Let's start with the ventral view: the most ventral part would be the vestibule, which connects to a gullet (a "digestive system," although it's an organelle; remember, it's just a single cell). The vestibule has a slit that faces downwards (towards the posterior region), known as the "furrow." The furrow is oriented slightly to the left. "Hey DOTkamina, but in the drawing it's oriented to the right." Yes, that's because the furrow faces to the left if you were viewing the cell dorsally. In ventral view, it will point to the other side (the left). I don't know why they always describe how it looks in dorsal orientation if the illustrations are ventral. It's confusing.

Slightly parallel and adjacent to both sides of the gullet are two large, reddish-brown chloroplasts. The chloroplasts occupy almost the entire length of the organism. According to Javornický (2014), these chloroplasts may sometimes be joined by a narrow dorsal isthmus. He also mentions that "6 pyrenoids should be typical for the species." Clay (2015) only states that there are "several" pyrenoids. I depicted 6 pyrenoids, 3 for each chloroplast. Of course, each pyrenoid is encased in a starchy sheath, presumably made of granules.

Among other features, the chloroplasts enclose a nucleus with a nucleolus at the rear of the cell (I'm not sure why I mention this; most nuclei in eukaryotic cells have a nucleolus). Around the nucleus, I have depicted the rough endoplasmic reticulum (with dots representing ribosomes. It's assumed they are more concentrated there, but are also distributed throughout the cell), and the smooth endoplasmic reticulum. I have also depicted the Golgi apparatus and a single, reticulated mitochondrion. The shape, number, and size of these structures are purely speculative, and I have done so to emphasize the eukaryotic nature of the organism. It is known that these structures "should" exist.

In the case of the mitochondrion, I have tried to represent it according to the established pattern for cryptomonad algae: that it is usually a single reticulated mitochondrion (i.e., as if it were an interconnected network). In the work of Santore and Greenwood (1977), it is indicated that this single reticulated mitochondrion is usually like a network of branches (sometimes thinner than others) that may be concentrated around the gullet. The branches extend throughout the cell, both internally (I would call this the "internal mitochondrial complex") and near the inner side of the plasma membrane (the "peripheral mitochondrial complex").

There are some exceptions to this general form of reticulated mitochondrion (for example, Hemiselmis rufescens has a more worm-like and unbranched mitochondria) (Santore and Greenwood (1977). I haven't found exact information on the mitochondrion of Cryptomonas curvata, but in Santore and Greenwood (1977) the spatial arrangement of the mitochondrion of Cryptomonas sp. (undetermined species) is showed. And that would be the inspiration for the mitochondrion of Cryptomonas curvata in this drawing. The width of the mitochondrial branches in this illustration is very homogeneous, but keep in mind that in reality they could be wider in some areas and thinner in others.

                                                              

I will briefly mention the presence of a single contractile vacuole in the anterior portion. 

With that said, let's move on to the last interesting part of Cryptomonas curvata (Campylomonas rostratiformis): the flagella. Two are identified: one short and one long. According to Kugrens et al. (1987) (Figures 9 to 11), both flagella have a single row of mastigonemes, but the structure varies. In the long flagellum, each mastigoneme has only one terminal filament. In the short flagellum, on the other hand, there are two terminal filaments, one shorter than the other. Additionally, at the end of the long flagellum, there appear to be "terminal hairs" (I represented 4, as indicated in Figure 19D of Kugrens et al. (1987)), but I'm not sure if there are actually exactly 4. According to the authors, this flagellar morphology is called "Cryptomonad-type 4 flagella," and it is also observed in Cryptomonas platyuris, C. marssonii, C. olozini, and Chilomonas paramecium. One troubling point to mention is that in that article, this flagellar morphology does seem to correspond to C. curvata, and "Cryptomonas rostratiformis" is mentioned as another species. As you know, it is currently considered yet another synonym of C. curvata.

There is no micrograph of the organism's cross-section. No, the illustration of the "anterior view," or "top view" for better understanding (as if you were looking at the "head" of the cell from above), is not a cross-section as such. In it, I represent the vestibule (omitting the two flagella, I only show two white dots that would be the "bases" of both flagella). Below the vestibule would be the gullet surrounded by ejectisomes. Incidentally, in the main illustration in ventral view, I represent the gullet surrounded by a single apparent row of ejectisomes, but in reality, there would be more rows covering the entire gullet. This is how it is represented in the drawings in Javornický (2014) (Figures 1 to 9). You can also see the anterior ends of both chloroplasts, and part of the nucleus, as well as the contractile vacuole and the furrow.

                                           

Finally, in the last illustration, the one of the whole, unsectioned cell, I know I said it's inspired by what you'd see in SEM (the reference is Figure 9B from Clay (2015)), but there are some creative choices. The existence of two shades of gray isn't natural; I actually did that to distinguish the two halves of the cell, especially so you can see the arrangement of the vestibule. The flagella should appear equally gray, not with those blue tones. That was to distinguish them better.

You know what annoys me about writing this post? I don't know why Blogger has been acting up; it won't let me post the images correctly, and they keep shifting around. I thought letting it sit would do the trick, but it's still the same.

I think that's all I have to say in this post. Of course, you can use any of these images freely; you know they're hosted on Wikimedia Commons. The only requirement is that you credit the author, for example, "DOTkamina 2025". 

That's all.

Ｅｎｊｏｙ ｔｈｅ ｓｔａｔｉｃ ｍｏｍｅｎｔｓ

 

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It's a bit late. I just got back from a walk. It's a hot day, although once I'm home it doesn't feel so threatening. Tomorrow my Career's supervisor is supposed to give me news about the approval of my final project, but I'll probably have to keep an eye on him to make sure he checks it because he definitely won't say anything. I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone, and I have plenty of reasons to do so... Because when I try to speak up, they just look at me like I'm a shit.

And I don't know why. Yesterday I felt overwhelmed by the upcoming exams, the final assignments that are due, because I'm not performing at my best, because this is the last semester and it will be impossible to graduate on time because of this damn final project. In theory it was easy, what I don't understand is why there are so many obstacles and why my superiors are so eager to rewrite everything. On top of that, they all have different opinions and I have to play in all sides.

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Yesterday I felt overwhelmed because my mother is having surgery in a week. I can't tell her I'm absolutely failing the final project, that I'm not going to be the pride of the family. The worst part is that it's not even out of emotional guilt, like, "She's done so much for me, how can I face her?" It's more out of fear. She's incredibly strict and explosive about everything. I've managed to cope so far. But as soon as she finds out, I'm afraid she might even physically punch me again. And hate me for even longer, of course. That's what I fear most. I'm not even doing this for myself.

I don't have many people around me to help, either. They're all unstable. Perhaps one of the most reliable is someone I've corresponded with academically on assignments and such (I'll call him "Human R"), but realistically, everyone is with someone for a reason, and if it's not for sex/love (in the case of male-female relationship), then it's for the convenience of what the other person can offer (in both cases male-female and same genre pairs). I don't really believe in true friendship. With Human R, there are moments of advice and such, but also of him taking advantage of my abilities, or well, sometimes I feel used.

Overall, I feel used. That's precisely why I stopped chatting with my most recent crush (let's call her "girl M"), because realistically, she was only messaging me for help with her final project. Of course, if I tried to reciprocate—that is, get support from her, even a little—I only got vague responses. "Nah, it's probably because she's not that capable, since she's the one asking for help." Or maybe it's because she's simply not interested in me beyond that, so when I ask for help, she's not interested either.

So I stopped messaging her, again. I think that's where the pattern becomes clearer. She asks, I reply briefly, and then I'm silent. I haven't found that girl I can just talk to without fear of being ignored. I'm not looking for some super-intelligent woman to save me from everything; I'm just looking for support and a break. 

Someone I can openly tell, "This is absolute crap." And have her say, "It must be difficult. But have you tried...?" And so, I too can contribute to solving her problems. I think that should be the ideal. Because it's exhausting to only receive other people's problems, but when you want to find help for your own, you don't find much.

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You can accuse me of whatever you want when I say I like watching these Gacha Life "damsel in danger finds love" videos in the most unsettling situations. Sure, they're stories that gloss over many real-life problems, but they fulfill the basic function: the fantasy of finding happiness. I don't know exactly why. Maybe it's to find that girl with whom I can feel both refuge and refugee. Or maybe it's the desire to have been something better than... "🅣🅗🅘🅢"

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I don't think I have anything else to say. Surprisingly, I didn't write this with the melancholy I expected, or rather, the melancholy I felt yesterday. I think I have the energy to write about the new Protist I just drew. Oh, that reminds me: girl M told me it's "cool." That I should try it online. Hehehe. If she knew I'm trying right now, without success. I think with publicity it could work. Although right now I'm stuck in anonymity under DOTkamina. How would I handle it if an opportunity arose in real life?

I suppose I'd just not mention anything, show the drawings I have, and that's it. 

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                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

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                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

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                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

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                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

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                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

                                                                                                         ..••°°°°••..°°••....••°°

But I wouldn't want girl M to find me and read all this. I'm worried about what would happen (°△°|||).

     Probably nothing, she'd just ignore it or avoid me more often. 

                                                                                                                             Idk...

(´-ι_-｀)